Today felt like a whole new world for me. Growing up, my family wasn't big into sports. In fact, we didn't watch or play sports at all! For the past several years we have watched Ethan play a variety of sports, but today was his first game playing "competitive" football.
The energy of the fans was palpable, and surprising to me. And refreshing. In the past, I've always felt a little self-conscious about my loud cheering, clapping and let's be frank, YELLING. It was nice to not be the only one for once.
With it being Ethan's first year on this league, I knew the chances of him playing quarterback (as he had done in his flag football league)were slim. Still, I hoped that during the last four weeks of practice he would get the opportunity to show the coaches what he's got, and that perhaps he might make a good impression. However, in the last two weeks of practice, it became evident that they had chosen their go-to players. Not only that, Ethan hadn't really gotten the chance to do many qb drills, and he was going to play a position for which he probably wasn't well suited.
We are all okay with this. He loves the game.
But as I watched him watching from the sidelines I couldn't help but shed a few tears behind my sunglasses. I know what it's like to wait. And hope. He got to do one play today, but it ended so quickly and I could sense his frustration. I could also see his patience, forbearance. He was going to wait for his chance on the field and be ready for that moment no matter what.
Watching him today reminded me of my own life's journey. He reminded me that as we wait expectantly for the next big thing, what are we doing to be prepared for it?
